Leaving Sydney

Today I left Sydney and went back down the coast to my Gran's house.  I cannot cope anymore.  I have had a few job interviews and they went well, got more or less offered a job with massive, who are a big web design company in Sydney.  I couldn't take it though.  I hated Sydney. 

The heat is getting to me more and more every day.  I feel very depressed, constantly in tears and thinking and worrying about things that are not in my control.  Thoughts such like, "What if we can't find somewhere to live?", "What if I don't find anyone here I can talk to?", "What am i going to do when I get back from England?  I Have sold everything, I am going to have to start from scratch when I get back?"  I started to panic and really freak out.  I was in the middle of this big city, not knowing anyone or anything and that really scared me.  I got to the point where I was having panic attacks all the time and couldn't even answer the phone or check my emails.  I had to refuse the job offers.  I was going to go mad if I stayed here any longer. 

I was gutted to leave as this was not meant to happen in my plan.  I have always planned to work in Sydney for a year and then come back to normal life in England, but It hasn't worked out that way and I am upset because it was my dream and it feels as though I have thrown it all away.  But there is no way I could have stayed there, so I left for Bateman's Bay to stay with my Gran and get my head sorted out before I went totally mad...